I finally got back in to see the Neurologist on Friday. To be honest, I was really nervous. If anyone remembers, the last time I was to a neurologist, I went through a lot of medication changes. This time went a lot better. The doctor discussed his concerns and we discussed ours. We won and everyone is happy.
Long story short, I am still medication free or at least free of medications to control my seizures. We explained what had happened over the past two years and that I haven't even had a seizure in the last ten months (knock on wood). We went through each medication I had been on and the side affects that I had. We explained the seizures and the frequency.
He agreed to keep me off medication since I'm not driving and since I know that I am at a higher risk for having a grand mal seizure without medication. Any one can have a grand mal though, really. He explained to us that I have a small piece of tissue damaged in the brain and to take control of that, we need to "sedate" the whole brain, which in the end causes collateral damage. This basically means that when we are trying to treat one diseased area of brain, were treating tissue that is not diseased which causes me all the extra issues.
I am officially assigned to a neurologist now that I can contact at any time, god forbid an issue arose. I'm to contact him if anything changes and he will see me in a year. I really wanted to fight to stay off medication and I'm happy that everyone is happy. I continue to grow and spread my wings and I thank god for every good day I have. I don't think I could be doing better, except for the sleep insomnia, which is well controlled if I take my medication. My anxiety is under control and has been for a year and a half this week. That is give or take two months of being on Lamictal that messed with my brain. Seizures are under control and my room is neat! God is good, life is good!!! :)
Dickinson Mental Health Charity Ball
Sunday, February 16, 2014
Saturday, February 8, 2014
Dear Independence...
You have sent my mother and I for quite the ride over the past month. The first semester of college was probably the best experience I could have asked for. I went home for a month and returned to a whole new world, albeit still good. Independence, it's really interesting what you can teach someone in a short time. So here goes!
I came back to school this semester to find you at peace. There weren't really any changes. I think I actually had this whole college thing down. I'm staying on top of my classes really well. I'm turning in assignments and getting good grades. You even let me get a 97% on my first college spanish quiz. That my friend, was awesome!!!
About a month ago you decided to take a turn for the worst? My body was done running off the fuel of excitement from the beginning of the semester and I got real sick. Independence, you just kicked me in the butt. I came down with a wicked sinus infection and an eye infection while my parents were out of town. I got stuck on antibiotics for two weeks and now I am better. I really had to use you though because my parents were out of town and I had to take care of myself. Wow!
My mom and dad came up to visit me last weekend. I broke some news to them that pleased them, but really made them think. Their little girl is really growing up and making some big girl decisions. Their little girl isn't going to be home for spring break because of you. You are making her spread her wings and fly, fly very high. I was eating lunch out with my parents when I through this news on them. My gut though is telling me that I there isn't a better way out there for me to spend my break. I will be serving the lord through Habitat for Humanity in New York with a new group of friends.
Just a couple days ago I had to call my mom and break more news to her that was bad? I don't know if it was bad, but you sure reared your ugly head again. I had to tell my mother that I don't think I will be home for the summer either. I'll probably be working an hour and a half away from her for the summer, where I go to school. Some great opportunities have really come up for me and I am here to follow Gods plan for me. I still have a job offer back home, if this opportunity falls through, but your good old friend time will really tell me what is right.
I just wanted to thank you though for these opportunities for me to grow. Someone needs to stick by my mothers side right now. She is a champ, but she is struggling. Could you maybe take it a little slower on my mother and I after this though. I think we've taken a enough big steps for now.
Simply,
J
I came back to school this semester to find you at peace. There weren't really any changes. I think I actually had this whole college thing down. I'm staying on top of my classes really well. I'm turning in assignments and getting good grades. You even let me get a 97% on my first college spanish quiz. That my friend, was awesome!!!
About a month ago you decided to take a turn for the worst? My body was done running off the fuel of excitement from the beginning of the semester and I got real sick. Independence, you just kicked me in the butt. I came down with a wicked sinus infection and an eye infection while my parents were out of town. I got stuck on antibiotics for two weeks and now I am better. I really had to use you though because my parents were out of town and I had to take care of myself. Wow!
My mom and dad came up to visit me last weekend. I broke some news to them that pleased them, but really made them think. Their little girl is really growing up and making some big girl decisions. Their little girl isn't going to be home for spring break because of you. You are making her spread her wings and fly, fly very high. I was eating lunch out with my parents when I through this news on them. My gut though is telling me that I there isn't a better way out there for me to spend my break. I will be serving the lord through Habitat for Humanity in New York with a new group of friends.
Just a couple days ago I had to call my mom and break more news to her that was bad? I don't know if it was bad, but you sure reared your ugly head again. I had to tell my mother that I don't think I will be home for the summer either. I'll probably be working an hour and a half away from her for the summer, where I go to school. Some great opportunities have really come up for me and I am here to follow Gods plan for me. I still have a job offer back home, if this opportunity falls through, but your good old friend time will really tell me what is right.
I just wanted to thank you though for these opportunities for me to grow. Someone needs to stick by my mothers side right now. She is a champ, but she is struggling. Could you maybe take it a little slower on my mother and I after this though. I think we've taken a enough big steps for now.
Simply,
J
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