bbbs/basketball

I am fortunate enough to be a part of our local big brothers big sisters program. Due to the diagnosis of aspergers, I am considered you at risk. My mom also contacted bbbs at a time when I was really struggling and since then I have been doing great!!!
    Big brothers/Big sisters often time has activities that we do as a group. They always invite  you to join and you can either say yes or no. I more than likely will say yes to anything unless i have something else already planned.
     Yesterday I had the opportunity to got to a car show that our local chapter was supporting. They had a kidzone dare I say it considering I am a young adult. They invited a bunch of kids from the program to come out and have some fun with other kids. I decided to go. I was a blast.
      The first thing that started to bring me a smile was when we first got there. There were about five of us "kids". The mentors had to bring stuff over to the kid tent where we would be hanging out. They packed the stuff up on a mule and a a trailer. These people offered to transport us too. It was awesome. when we arrived at the tent we were greeted by 6'5" in height girl basketball players who were giving us gifts. It was amazing. I even got a hat from them and got it autographed by all the girls.
        Later on we got separated into groups with our friends and a basketball player. The groups were small so we got the undivided attention of the girls. I had a blast and our girl was so sweet to us. We played uno, got to know each other and ate pizza together. We were the center of attention as well as them. They cared for us so much. They did what we wanted to do and then they were the center of attention because we looked up to them. I feel like this was a really neat experience and I thought I would share it. It made my day!!! :)

Aspergers or Life???

I often come across a specific dilemma. You may be asking what that dilemma is. When i get upset or I have an issue, I often times blame it on my aspergers. The doctors always say stuff like you have an anxiety disorder and that you have sensory issues. They also say stuff like you have trouble with peers. Me as someone with aspergers, I often think everything bad that happens to me has to do with my aspergers. This isn't always the case though. When i go to the doctor and complain about something, sometimes they say we all struggle with that. They most frequently say that high school is the toughest part of life. Then I am stuck trying to decide if i have to put up with whatever is going on or I can have a pity party for myself because I have asperger syndrome. Girls in high school can be catty.
Really, how should I decipher the difference between girls being catty and girls being bullies. What about anxiety about starting college? We all struggle with things like this, but aspies I guess just get labelled because they are more sensitive. I thought I would share this because I often come across this dilemma.

Life/College/Work???

For the past four years I have been going to an alternative program. No, this does not mean I am bad. This just means that I went to a high school that was for different learners. I really enjoyed my time there. In the summers I would spend my time at summer camps and on occasion help out my old babysitter who to this day we are still friends with. I have never had an actual job before. I have had job coaches and work experiences, but no real job where I fend for myself.
      This summer has been a lot of change for me like it would be for anyone. Considering the fact that I have asperger syndrome, sometimes it makes the transition a little harder. I was first overwhelmed by my graduation party which hosted over fifty people. Yup I said 50 people. The party was awesome, but I had never been to a party that big and I was kind of happy that it was all about me. When the party was over, there was a little part of me that was jealous or maybe I should say selfish. Now I wish that everyday was meant for me. Anyway that is one change I am going through.

As I said before, I started a job this summer which is another big transition. It is not a bad transition, but it is a transition and it does contribute to anxiety. I love my job. This summer I am working at an adult daycare that I have been volunteering at for three years. I have loved working with the clients there day in and day out, but with being an employee instead of a volunteer, you have a lot more expectations that I wasn't expecting. There is some stuff that I don't have to learn since I will only be there for the summer, but then there is other stuff that I must learn and not complain. I don't know what is what because I need a fine line and sometimes there isn't one.

Along with work, I am starting college. I am going to a program that is a stepping stone to real college. I will still be part of my school district while taking college classes. I am quite excited about this experience and I look forward to sharing more in the future. As of right now I have had a lot going on and it is all good stuff!!! :)

 

About me

Hi there! I would like to introduce my self to you. I am a young women struggling with asperger syndrome. It took 16 years for the professionals to finally find a diagnosis that fit. At an early age my teachers and my parents had noticed some quirks. Even as a baby I was more sensitive to noise than typical. If a sound was unfamiliar I cried. As I became older I went through several diagnosis' that never really fit. They included ADD, Sensory processing disorder and nonverbal learning disability.

I decided to create this blog as a way to let stuff out and a way to share my life with asperger syndrome. There are very few girls out there that are DIAGNOSED with asperger syndrome. this is my story!!!